Emotional Roller Coaster

I was on an emotional roller coaster.  But, I bet I didn't need to tell you that.

The good news ... I decided to exit the ride.

I mean it's not like it was a ride I'd intended to board in the first place.

But, I suppose saying that I decided to exit the ride isn't quite accurate.  It was more like I was escorted off the ride.  Daddies are good at that sort of thing.

This past weekend there were discussions of the verbal kind and discussions of the ouchy kind.

Friday evening Nash decided to address my last post.  First he apologized because he realized that he hadn't done a good job of communicating his thoughts and feelings.  What he said was not what he meant.  His choice of words didn't accurately convey what he was really thinking/feeling.  He'd called me back (after I, um, hung up on him, ooops), but I wouldn't answer the phone.  He said he's going to be working on his communication skills.

After that discussion it came time to discuss my behavior.  First I'd jumped to conclusions, then I hung up on him, then I ignored him and wouldn't answer the phone, then when I did finally answer the phone much later I wouldn't let him talk, I was short with him and got off the phone as quickly as possible.  Yeah.  He discussed all of those things ... wooden paddle, bare bottom, otk.  That was a very ouchy discussion.  My bottom was still tender the next day, especially in those darn sit spots he likes to target.

Speaking of the next day ... well, let's just say that he decided to reiterate some of the points he made the night before ... this time with his hand thankfully and not the wooden paddle again.

So, it seems I definitely have some things to work on too ... things like actually listening to him and asking for clarification if he says something that I find hurtful instead of jumping to conclusions ... things like not hanging up on him (which is an old pattern of behavior that unfortunately does still crop up every now and then) and answering the phone when he calls even if I'm upset (unless I genuinely can't for some reason) ... things like not assuming the worst or ignoring him or ... well, you get the idea.

The good news is that we worked through things and by Sunday all was well again in our world.

Now I have something to ask of you ... if you see me wandering around the amusement park again, please warn me to steer clear of that stupid roller coaster, okay?


  1. I have been on my own roller coaster so I can relate. Glad you are working on things though. Have a good week.

    1. I think we all hop onto that roller coaster from time to time unfortunately SD. I hope that you can exit the ride soon too. (((hugs)))

  2. Hi Lilli, I never did like roller coasters :) I can definitely relate to times of being on an emotional roller coaster.

    I am so glad that Nash was able to escort you off the ride and that the two of you worked through things, allbeit the painful way, and that all is right in your world again.

    I will keep an eye out for you in the park, you know, just in case :)


    1. Not a fun ride, huh Roz? Unfortunately I imagine we can all relate to being on that emotional roller coaster. Things are much better now. Thanks for keeping an eye out! I'll keep an eye out for you too! ;) (((hugs)))


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