So Much on My Mind

I don't know if I'm coming or going sometimes ... or maybe it's that I just don't know where I'm headed.  Do you ever feel like that?  It's kind of like your mind is in overdrive. There's so much to think about, so much to be done and my mind is all over the place at the moment.  Focus is not my strong point today I guess.  Sometimes I get like this.  It's funny because other times I can be so focused on something that everything else seems to disappear.

It seems like 2016 is going to be about change for us.  2015 was largely a year of crisis.  Thankfully, there were good things sprinkled throughout too.  But, goodness, it was mostly about crisis.  We were just happy if we managed to tread water and not drown.  It's not that bad things haven't happened already in 2016, but more so it seems to be a year of transitions for us, a year of change.  And hopefully much of that change will be for the better.

Nash started off the year with a new job, a better job.  Oh, he's not making as much money as he was, so that creates other issues, but he's home more, treated better at work, has better benefits, is happier with his job, etc.

And speaking of jobs, I'm contemplating going back to work myself.  Okay, I'm more than contemplating it.  I'm actively job hunting currently.  And I'm considering going back to school as well.  But, the job has to come first at this point.  Events in the past year dwindled our meager savings down to nothing.  Not only that, but we ended up with some late charges and past due notices even.  That's a problem.  That's a big problem.  We've been trying to get back on our feet financially speaking, but I don't think it's going to happen (at least anytime soon) without me working.  But, really, the time just seems right anyway.

Stuff with our kids has been changing too.  Our daughter has had some health issues that she's been dealing with for awhile now.  As a parent it has been heartbreaking.  But, in many ways she's doing better and better.  And she has recently had some more testing done and will be seeing another specialist soon.  So, we're hoping for some answers in areas that we haven't managed to get any yet.  And it looks like our son will be transitioning from being homeschooled to going to public school.  That will be a really big change for him, but we're hopeful it will be a positive one.

Earlier this year we lost a family member to cancer.  And currently we have three good friends who are also struggling with cancer.  At this point it seems that they're all doing fairly well, better than expected for some of them actually.  So, we keep them in our prayers and try to reach out and encourage them in different ways.  Unfortunately it seems my dad's cancer may have returned as well, but we won't know for sure until further testing.  The cancer that he'd had before was pretty tame as far as cancer goes.  But, this looks different on the imaging, so his doctor is concerned.  That of course makes us concerned as well.  I know I'm very blessed to still have both my parents, but I sure don't want to lose either one of them.

We also visited a different church recently.  The church that we've called home for many years now has been going through a time of transition too, still is actually.  I don't really know that we're looking for a new church home at this point.  But, I bet we'll go back to the other church we just visited at some point.  I don't know.  It's hard when you've made so many good friends at one church, but you don't really feel passionate about your walk with Christ when you're there anymore.  Sometimes that says something about the church ... sometimes it's more about us ... sometimes maybe it's just that God has something different in mind.  Sometimes things in life are only for a season.

So, what about you?  What do you have going on?  Has a theme emerged in your life for 2016 yet?  If so, what is it?  If not, well, there's plenty of year left to go.


  1. Hi Lilli, oh gosh, you do have a lot going on! I really hope this year will be a much better and positive year for you.

    Glad to hear about Nash's job, that he is happier and treated better. Wishing you the best with the job search. That will certainly be a huge change for you.

    I'm so sorry to hear about your dad and friends. I can't imagine having so many loved ones going through cancer at the same time. Sending positive thoughts and prayers. Also that your daughter continues to improve and that you get some answers.


    1. Hey Roz! A lot going on? Yes, absolutely. But, we're certainly not alone in that. It seems like many have a lot going on these days. Maybe it's this stage of life? Who knows. Anyway, thanks my friend! (((hugs)))

  2. Hi Lilli, oh dear, sounds like life is really tough for you all at the moment. It has been a bit iffy over here too, Sometimes the nightmare never looks like it is ending does it? All we can do is plod on and take one day at a time. Fingers crossed for you
    love Jan, xx

    1. Hi Jan! Life certainly can be challenging sometimes, can't it? Somehow I've missed what all you've had going on, and have just caught dribs and drabs. I should head over to your blog and search back a bit through the posts. I do hope things improve for you my friend! (((hugs)))


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