Michael Finnegan Begin Again

Maybe you know the nursery rhyme...  

I'm not really comparing Michael to Michael Finnegan, but the rhyme came to mind because it really does feel like we're beginning again.

We had been doing ttwd for a little over 2 years when we basically took a 6 month break.  It wasn't a planned break or even something we discussed.  It was just an unusually stressful period of time in our lives and in our marriage and things changed for awhile.

To say that ttwd completely disappeared during that time period isn't completely accurate.  Some of the lessons we'd learned from this lifestyle certainly helped us during that time.  But many aspects of how we lived out ttwd fell by the wayside, and out of necessity really.  Our focus was on surviving, on just getting through that time as individuals, as a couple and as a family.  And by the grace of God (because truly we couldn't have done it on our own) we made it.

I know that probably sounds rather dramatic, but quite honestly, it was dramatic.  We were in crisis management mode.  And I can't tell you how good it feels to be out of that mode now and to be able to move on with our lives again.

As you know if you read my last post, Michael and I recently reconnected in some important and intimate ways.  But, what you don't know is that I've already received my first punishment spanking since we reconnected.

Quite honestly, I was pushing Michael's buttons, feeling a bit mischievous, and testing his resolve.  And I was curious to see where the boundaries lay.  Mind you, Michael says I don't usually just step over the line, I pole vault over it.  He is usually laughing when he says that at least...and shaking his head...and probably considering just how he's going to deal with me.  lol

Anyway, it wasn't long before I found myself being escorted into the bathroom, bent over, my bottom bared and Michael was smacking away with the wooden bath brush.  Ouchy!  Ouch!  Ouch!  Ouch!!!  That thing hurts!  And remember, it had been 6 months (probably more actually) since I'd been spanked with anything other than Michael's hand and barely with that.  Staying in position was nearly impossible and I actually drew myself away from him and told him no.  But, he just put me back into position and spanked some more.  *pout*

Afterward we went into the living room and he had me sit at his feet for a little bit while we watched a show.  He stroked my hair and rubbed my neck and shoulders, calming me.  I was feeling much softer.  When he encouraged me come up on the couch I cuddled right into him.  We had a talk about our roles and expectations and how this was a new beginning and it would probably take some time to settle into it again.

It felt good.  I mean, the spanking itself hurt.  But, emotionally it was good.  This is what we both want.  It just works for us.  And it's about much more than the spanking.  Although, I will admit that the spanking adds a lot to the dynamic, at least for us.

And so it seems that Michael (Finnegan?  lol) and I have begun again.  :)


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