Blessed vs. Stressed
Coming into this holiday season I was feeling stressed. Finances were an ongoing issue and I was concerned about making Christmas special. In truth, I was concerned about a lot more than that, but that was certainly one of my concerns. As a Christian, I realize that Santa and presents is not what Christmas is all about. It’s about the ultimate gift that God gave us and that was his son Jesus. Christmas is a time to celebrate his birth.
It took me a little longer than usual to get into the holiday spirit. We put our tree up and decorated it, but the boxes with other decorations just sat there, waiting for me to delve into them and turn our home into a Christmas wonderland. Finally one day I took a deep breath and delved in and I’m glad I did. Have you heard that saying, fake it until you make it? Well, sometimes that really does work.
Then the horrific school shooting in Connecticut happened. I think the whole country is still reeling from it. I've cried a lot, thinking of those children, the adults, all those lives taken and the families they leave behind. And yet, as callous as it may sound, the truth is that life does go on and we have to find a way to move forward.
I haven’t been feeling well for the past few days. I had an allergic reaction and was very itchy, speckled and puffy. This isn't the first time something like that has happened, but it had been several years. Fortunately I managed to avoid a hospital visit and with some medicine I’m almost back to normal now.
All of these things have left me feeling very grateful, very thankful, very blessed. Our financial situation still isn't good, but we got creative and were able to come up with gifts for our family and friends. I think our kids will be excited and happy on Christmas morning. And I know that I will just be thankful that we’re all together. I've been reminded that life is precious and fleeting. Regardless of finances or health issues or whatever else, I’m so blessed to have a loving husband and two wonderful children. I may have come into this holiday season feeling stressed, but I’m confident I’ll be leaving it behind feeling so blessed.